Crazily enough, as I'm currently enjoying a beach trip with my family in Destin, my mind flashes back to our beach trip 2 years ago in Destin at this same condo on this same beach; I had just finished my freshman year of college and I was still caught in the middle of everything. I remember calling my friend, Jake, and telling him how far in and stuck I felt, and how much I cried telling him I wanted out of everything I was involved in. I remember trying to tell my mom about everything... without actually telling her anything. And how everyday was an emotional roller coaster, and that aside from the pictures we took that year, I can't remember much of the vacation at all.
Gosh that was rough.
And now, here I am 2 years later, on this same beach in this same condo with my same family, enjoying the heck out of some sunshine and waves, going places together as a family, and I get to talk to the sweetest boyfriend in the world multiple times a day.
It blows my mind how much can change in 2 years... and how 2 years doesn't seem that long, seriously can feel like a lifetime; how everything inside of a person can change and their whole LIFE can be different!
GOD IS SO ROCKIN!
Haha
Aside from all of that being something that I've been itching to write, what's another topic I've wanted to get out of my fingers? Depth.
Depth in people, in experiences, in situations, in relationships, in life that surrounds you. And that's something I've noticed a lack in lately, and it's driving me absolutely insane! I don't know if being transparent is something that God persuades me to do on a daily basis but when I interact with people that I strictly surface level people, it just makes me feel weird; friends from high school, peers at school, even people in my family! It's not that I feel dumb or too open with anyone when I'm talking to/living life with someone, it has a tendency to make me wonder why they're surface level, why their walls are up, or even the extreme of why do I hang out with them? Now I'm not doing that to anyone who comes across as a shallow person right off the bat, but if you're going to be somebody who walks through this life with me and my Jesus, we better be able to get deep REAL fast! That's just how it works! We were created for relationships, not for receding interactions!
Now I am done. More beach. Ah :)
