"...and their nets were full..."

I don't think I've sat down in awhile, pushed everything out of my life and my mind, and realize how blessed I am. Personally, I think that comes from being too busy and too whiny.
2 weeks ago, we had our 4 year olds from work graduate! And yes, I know that having a graduation from preschool to kindergarten is dumb but keep those comments to yourself. About half of these preschoolers, I had taught since they were 2! Did I cry? Good gravy I was spurtin' tears! I cried more than some of the parents! (but of course, this girl carries her waterproof around hehe)
This past week I did something every night after work, from kickboxing to graduation dance parties to bowling to going to see my special needs friends at their camp to not going to bed early. So, I've been on a no-rest, time-consuming, emotion-wearing, sort of rockin' roller coaster.
Today was the day though, that God brought all this to my attention though; I had been spending all my time with friends and family, and they've all seemed to be paired of tripled off... and I just kinda hop in and hop out. Whether it be couples, close siblings, close friends, I've fit in but not as solidly as they all have with each other. And today, as I was driving home, I was hit with the feeling of loneliness, and my word it was overwhelming. It kinda knocked the breath out of me a bit. And I hated it! I can't remember the last time I felt that alone or forgotten or just that out of sorts!
Right in the middle of it, I felt God's presence filling up my car, and just settling down on me. I felt Him saying, "Kendall, calm down. When have I ever let you be completely alone? When have I ever forgotten you?" And at that point I cried a little bit more for feeling and acting like I had forgotten who and whose I was. I don't like feeling lonely, and in all reality I have no reason to.. or even to think I am. I have the one who created everything and everyone inside of me, I am surrounded with brothers and sisters in Christ, and I have all of nature surrounding me when they aren't.
It shook me up a little, in a good way though, so I'm glad for that.

On a side note, I'm getting pumped for school, cause it's getting closer and closer!