Here's one of the problems I have: I am a people pleaser. Yeah, that's right. Kendall Elaine is a people pleaser. I have the hardest time in the WORLD saying "no" to people, even if their requests are outrageous or unrealistic or inconvenient, something inside if me still bubbles up within me and comes out of my mouth as the word, "yes".
Does that bother me? All the freakin time! Do I say anything about it? Heavens no. Do I do anything to fix it? Again, no.
That, my dear reader, is the problem.
How do I find the line between saying agreeing to/with something and bending over backwards and complicating my whole life?
My dad was talking to me about it tonight and said I needed to draw lines and keep them there, not to erase them and draw them somewhere else! My argument was that I have lines to a certain extent, and throughout experiences and trials and tribulations, I'll be able to draw more definite and final lines. This theory doesn't work for every life situation, nor would I apply it to every life situation, but I think it could work for some situations, you know?
Another argument I had was, this girl has the spiritual gift of mercy. Neither of my parents do. So it presents a difficult encounter when I can't make them see why I'm doing something for someone, or I'm going out of my way, or I'm bending over backwards. The only side they seem to come from is the concerned parent side that says that I'm wearing myself thin and not speaking out and letting other people control me.
All of this could be a little bit of everything, I honestly don't know. I think I need to research the gift of mercy a bit more, just for safety.
Anywho, that's what I've been chewing on tonight.
I also hacked up some pumpkins with a baseball bat today. My new favorite thing to do :)
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