Healed.

A number of things happened today that shook up my world a bit, and my fingers have been jumping all over the place to get myself to sit down and type it alllll out and to share it. So voila!

School.
Here's the beef, whether people feel like it should happen or not, I'm coming back to MC in the fall. Why? Because God is telling me (and pretty clearly at that) that I should. I have tons of reasons not to go back, and I really shouldn't even have the option anymore, but God keeps raining/reigning down blessings regarding MC into my lap and I'm not doing a thing! I have Financial Aid worked out, the music stuff set up, I even have a roommate! God's timing SO does not make sense to me but it couldn't have been more perfect!

Health:
I've been getting more and more sick as this past weekend has progressed and today the fever hit me... along with a swollen throat, puffy eyes, an ache-y body, and sinus pressure that is so intense that it hurts when I move my eyes! MY EYES!
Anywho, I had already called my boss and told her that coming in tomorrow was NOT going to be an option, she found a replacement and all that jazz, and my baby brother (the 18 year old one) and I start having a super great conversation. At the end of this conversation he stands up and says, "Alright come on, stand up. We've gotta pray healing over your throat."
I'm sorry... what?? I went along with it though, stood up and walked over next to him and he put his hand on my throat and started praying.
Guys.
What happened during that prayer still blows my mind. As SOON as he started praying, I felt my throat open up; like a fist being unfurled after a long time. It was freaking me out but at the same time I couldn't believe what was happening! I started crying tears of joy and as I looked at my brother's face he was radiating the Spirit (not like a flashlight or anything, metaphorically). I couldn't say a word I was so shocked! He got done and asked how my throat was... and I told him exactly what happened in a clear voice with an un-swollen throat that I hadn't had all day! AH! I might be able to go to work tomorrow after all! Haha! It's still un-swollen too, it doesn't hurt at all!

Agh, lastly, family.
Tonight was something different with our family... something we had never experienced together. We were going through our same routine of dinner, and then the minor bickering between dad and said teenager and something we like to do in our family is gang up on each other or against each other. Cruel, but it's what we've been doing. Then Michael, baby brother, out of nowhere (but for him I suppose it was very much somewhere) started speaking out against it. To my parents, to the siblings, to everybody. Saying that we believe one reality and live a completely different one and that it wasn't right and he was tired of it! Tired of the fake, tired of the stupid things we argue about day in and day out, tired of harsh and rash being ways we use to discipline, tired of us abiding by the ways society tells us to act, tired of so many things! And it was like we were all dumbstruck; like mom and dad as well as us kids had forgotten how to talk.
Never have any of us kids come out and say anything like that towards our parents or just in general. After we had regained our balance we all started talking about things... issues we had and how to resolve them. Not just mom and/or dad providing solutions, but all of us. So it was almost like we all had a resolution to work on to fix something.
One point that stuck out to me the most was the fact that we stay so much inside the role of "family" that we almost completely forget and disregard the fact that we're brothers and sisters in Christ. See here: we're 12 individuals with our own relationship with Jesus Christ *makes vertical motion* and we usually tend to keep it that way. Our outlets are different.. and it's like we choose to tell and share with everyone except for our blood-related family. Like, I could never sit down and tell my mom something that I would tell my best friend or my mentor, because I don't view her as a sister in Christ. I view her as the role she plays: my mother. Same goes with sharing and experiencing things with my dad and brothers and sisters.
It's getting out of this role playing game and treating each other like more than a "family" but an actual FAMILY and doing it to the glory of Christ! It's getting real with each other! It's bearing with each other and forgiving whatever grievances you may have against one another!

GET THERE.