Abiding Above Guilt

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That was the title of our Sunday morning service this morning, and the main definition of doubt was that it was simply rejecting the facts and the evidence of God's Word.
Kind of strange to think about... When you're a Christian you don't like to think of the fact that you yourself doubt God's Word and Promise, but when we find ourselves doubting ourselves, our faith, and our well-being that's exactly what we're doing.
Chew on it.

School stuff has become less hectic and way more peaceful coming solely from the Creator of the Universe telling me to quit worrying about things and let Him take the wheel. Okay, I can do that.
As simple of a concept that is, and as freakin' hard as it is, it's actually quite wonderful and stress-free... takes a load off of my acne too :)
I'm not going to say yet where I think God is leading me to school, because some of the pieces still need to fall into place and I feel like I'm rushing it a bit, but it'll be on here soon enough, no worries =D

I had 2 days off last week, Thursday and Friday, to go down to Mobile (which I didn't, long story), and let me tell you: I don't think I can ever go that long without my kids and with that much time to myself ever again. It was like having 3 Saturdays in a row! The sleeping late and doing nothing and not being rushed, I mean yeah it was nice, but 3 days of it?!? No thanks! I can't do it! And I missed my kids WAY too much!

Mercy!

On a different note, not sure what kind, I think I'm getting sick. I'm so through with being sick, like, no lie. Yesterday I just felt ugh, and today didn't prove to be much better. I think a fever tacked itself onto my head today but I removed it with Tylenol. Mwuahaha.

Can I also just say I love babysitting? I've babysat every weekend for the past month and I haven't gotten tired of it yet. Partially because it's money, and partially because these kids are hilarious! One kid I babysat for last night, her name is Isla, and I was having trouble finding a top to one of her sippy-cups and out of the blue she said, "Oh<, I can help you find it, I'm spider man!" She said it so matter-of-factly that I couldn't help but laugh! Aggghhhhh love it so much!

Another thing: Sister got back from Haiti yesterday and today after church was the first time I've gotten to see her in over a week! We hugged, cried, and she poured out her heart to me (half in English, half in Creole) and all about her trip and how she had left her heart in Haiti; she showed me about 700 pictures and each one had a story with it that she told with such passion and longing my heart ached for hers. I hardly ever see my sister passionate to the point of tears about something, that's always been my role ha. She's cried a lot since she's been home, which makes my heart hurt for her even more.

It is a terribly hard thing to be somewhere and have your heart somewhere else.